I always take this time of year to sit back and reflect and thank our amazing Heavenly Father for our blessings. After the month we just had, I have soooo much to be thankful for!!!
After my surgery, two hospital visits with immediate family members, and for those of you who do not know, I just had my second miscarriage this week, I have quite a bit to be depressed about. However, somehow, even when we lost Hannah, I seem to cling to all of the good in my life. This morning, I woke up completely exhausted, my body still cramping from the miscarriage and very sad that I have lost the excitement of another new blessing in our house. However, when I rolled over to see our two daughters in bed with me, I immediately praised God for giving me beautiful reasons to move on. I sucked it up, got dressed, put a smile on my face and decided to make some cinnamon rolls (that always makes everything all better, right?).
As the children awoke, they all came and found me and hugged me and gave me "sugars". Ronnie had left to track a deer he had shot the night before, but I love having the peace of knowing that he always has the best intentions for our family and tries so hard to take care of us.
Things have been tight financially for a long time, but as I look back, God has kept his promises: We've never went hungry, we've always had food and we've always had a warm house to live in. Most days these things seem like simple things, but when you're strapped for money, they become major, important things.
I know, there are still many trials ahead, but I thank God for his promises and his love. I am sooo not worthy and undeserving!!!