Tuesday, October 12, 2010

A Calm Rain

  I just had the most serene experience......... 
 Ronnie and I had recently made the decision to walk completely in faith and to let God decide how many children we will have.  Now by that being said, I hope anyone reading this, especially my family, you will listen fully before trying to debate me.  There have been a few reasons why we've made this decision.  One of them being a sermon we both heard/read.  This is the link to the sermon, Our view on family planning.
  Another seeing how God has taken care of us no matter what.  Alot of people have told us, I will die if I try to have anymore children.  But truth is, God is in control and if I'm going to "die" it's going to be because he called me home, not because I took my own life.  Ronnie and I have been through a lot!!!  And God has safely guided us through each step.  This morning I stumbled across this beautiful woman, named September, and her blog.  September's Story  As I was reading her words of encouragement and grief, it started to rain just lightly on our roof.  Mind you, we've not seen rain here for days, maybe even months.  We've had a burn ban on, it's so dry.  It was as if God was quietly telling me, I will always take care of you no matter what! 
  I'll be the first to tell you, there was several nights I lay in bed pregnant with Leah, but I would repeat Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I will trust in You to myself over and over and would finally peacefully fall asleep.  God never said pregnacy would be easy, in fact, he told us it would be just the opposite. 
  It really is amazing how much smoother our lives go when we completely rely and trust in our loving father.  This is not to say that Ronnie and I are by any means perfect christians, none of us are!  However, I've made great strides in my walk, since I've completely handed things over and I can not even begin to tell you how the Lord has changed my husband since we met.  He still struggles, as do I, to be christ-like, but he tries and that is all that matters.  This is also why I fall in love with him all over again when he overcomes something he has been struggling with for awhile.  And even though I, his wife, know him better than anyone, he still neve ceases to amaze me!! 
  I know, just as God has brought Ronnie safely home from Iraq, delivered me and my first born from HELLP syndrome safely, and brought our beautiful daughter, Hannah into this world, even after the doctors said she would not be born alive, he can heal and protect us from anything! 
  Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


  1. I read your Hannah's story and just could not stop crying. You are a brave and sweet Mama, and your children are just beautiful!